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412Lost+Found is a musical project diving into chronic PTSD trauma healing. Instead of an album, 412Lost+Found exists as paper scraps of scattered musical tokens dedicated to specific traumatic moments. To take those broken pieces of my psyche and use them to paint a soundscape of unspeakable trauma and torture that truly cannot be expressed through simple common language.

"LemonPackets_WAV" explores the bizarre phenomena of being nostalgic for our trauma, and the use of this phenomena to bring happiness once safe. How? Like Yin Yang cannot be all or the other, often we have moments during our trauma - especially longer drawn out traumas - that bring us relief during Soul shattering distress. Something that makes us feel even the slightest bit of relief, the slightest bit more alive, or even brought on a smile during the event. My first time experiencing this was my trauma at 15, where the first time I felt any positive emotions at all after the event was having the most dope ass Salisbury steak in the hospital. For years Salisbury steak became a comfort food, not out of memory of the trauma itself, but nostalgia tripping on the relief from the trauma.
Lemon packets is a similar concept. You're held against your will, life just drags on and on and on seeming like it'll never end. The food is mostly rehydrated bulk rations, and eating in front of other captives is degrading. The solace a simple lemon packet brings in making that horrid food more bearable makes lemon packets a precious commodity. People willing to trade half their food simply for a second lemon packet, not because it holds value - because lemon packets are dirt cheap - but because it brings value to your life in captivity.

LemonPackets_WAV

September 9th 2021 marks exactly 20 years - Two Decades - of the existence of the Mothtasia Synergism System, which is a moment at the age of 9 Lorraine B. Mori considers to be the genesis of the two kitsune spirits Salrah Inamashi & Keijn Hensi Yamori possessing her body; spirits and messengers who have been with her guiding her through life since before she even knew what a kitsune was.
   A long time ago on a distant shore a fox finds herself separated from all she knows. all alone in this strange new land. she called out for help from anyone. for days she cried out until her voice could no longer handle the strain. but no one heard and no one came. she'd never felt loneliness this deep before. then one day while out foraging she heard something. "could it be?" she thought she followed the sound. her heart overflowed with hope "im not alone". when she reached a clearing she saw a young girl with beautiful black hair.  she'd never seen someone so beautiful before. when there eye met it was like the universe froze in place. this was the brave new beginning of the story of Katie and Salrah.
::Journal Entry [Katie] - "I still remember this day 20 years ago, throughout all my amnesia and memory loss, I still remember 20 years ago on this day better and more freshly than I remember what I ate yesterday."
   "It was my first moments waking of from becoming 'biopost' - there really isn't an English translation for that word so we had to create one, it's the process of possessing a human body to continue life after death, a little  bit like reincarnation, but not quite - I woke up washed up on a beach with a young girl standing over me. She was a human with black hair and a cyan crescent moon on her face - something we locally do to denotate clan affiliation - she gave me shelter and from that moment of me waking up both me [Katie Hensi Yamori] as well as Salrah + Became the genesis of Mothtasia Synergism System in Lorraine B. Mori."

Strawberries! We had strawberries that day... Did you know that the proper way to eat Angel Food Cake is to gob on tons of whipped cream and top with vertically sliced strawberries? Don't pick the stems of the strawberries, just cut the entire tip off in a way you can stand it vertically, then cut it vertically in half. This is how my mother does it, and this is how my grandmother does it, it's necessary for properly enjoying Angel Food Cake.

"A Brave New Beginning" _WAV

412Lost+Found is a musical project diving into chronic PTSD trauma healing. Instead of an album, 412Lost+Found exists as paper scraps of scattered musical tokens dedicated to specific traumatic moments. To take those broken pieces of my psyche and use them to paint a soundscape of unspeakable trauma and torture that truly cannot be expressed through simple common language.

"ButchVsMelody_WAV" is a captured token of the final moments of receiving relentless in-person death threats, 4 days night and day; the guy never slept to stop. At the very end of sitting there and just taking it we finally make sure there's an object between the both of us, and I sing in a fortissiissimo heavy vibrato operettic voice "You think you're special? You think you're unique? You're not the first to treat me like a freak." and he was so enraged two people quickly stepped in front of both of us so that he doesn't try to kill me, and I just turn around and walk away.

4 editions exist, one for each 24 hour period of relentless death threats I received from this Bitch. If you want the entire 412Lost+Found collection this is going to prove to be one of the more difficult parts to own. But maybe that's part of what makes this project so great: the scarcity is wildly variable, as is most of my art.

ButchVsMelody_WAV

Mothtasia presents an Offical NFT for the 69 Special Editions of our song "In The Cave Of The Mountain Demon King" from our first album "Chrysalis Transition" - further immortalizing the legacy of "Harold" the family heirloom violin - among the first violins made in the 2nd Industrial Revolution, Pre-WWI, taken out of storage and humidity decay to create the violin parts of this music.

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